Today we are getting chapter 9 of His Blood, which means we have only two more chapters till the end of the story. I finally have another chapter of Shame’s Desire in progress and it just needs editing, which means you will get it after His Blood is finished hopefully.
I’m having a hard time writing my blog post this week. Normal life as always is getting in the way, though this time I think it is myself getting in my own way. Like many creative types I struggle with issues that seem to have no cause. My anxiety is my hurtle of the day.
Anxiety for me in a weird topic. It tends to have little or no cause, and I’m not sure which is worse. When it has no cause, who I just have this overwhelming since of worry than I can sometimes tell myself there is nothing to worry about, I can talk myself into calming down and just dive into something to distract me. Other times though it lasts for days like this since of doom hanging over me, waiting for something to go wrong so my brain can say, see I told you it was bad.
When the cause of the anxiety is something silly or small it isn’t much better. Sometimes I can solve the problem, which makes the worry go away. But much of the time it is drawn from something I have no control over. In those times it connects to a since of helplessness that makes me want to just hide and never come out.
Today’s anxiety is both with and without cause. It is mainly due to a party I am helping my sister with next week. It seems the more I learn about this party the more I get drown in this overwhelming since of dread. Instead of looking forward to spending time with friends and family, I am slowly panicking about the huge amount of people who will be there and not being able to retreat for hours and hours and hours.
So this has taken up my whole brain making it hard to think about telling good stories or talking about fun things. My hope is it will go away soon…
So here comes another chapter of His Blood! We are on chapter 8 out of 11 so you only have to deal with a few more weeks before you know how it all turns out! Ive decided I am going to finish out this story before I post anything else. I hope to have a couple more chapters of Shame’s Desire done before we finish this story so we can go right back into that.
So November is coming once again, and as many of you may already know it is National Write a Novel Month, or NaNoWriMo for short. I do plan to participate again this year, and I hope to be able to get some of the original ideas I have down on paper.
For me writing original work is a lot more scary than any fan-fiction because this would be 100% me. I can’t hide behind other people’s characters I have to make my own. But I need to push myself out of my comfort zone and take on new projects. I mean there was a time when I refused to post even fan-fiction because it was outside of my comfort zone, and look how far I have come from there?
This year I plan to write Awake: A Sleeping Beauty Story. It is a concept I have been playing around with for a while and I decided NaNoWriMo is the exact excuse I need to actually work on it. Because I will be working on original work I hope to have a bit of a stock pile of fan-fiction for you guys to ready while I am working on this.
Just because I am curious, how many of you would be interested in reading more original work by me, or do you feel I should stick to your beloved fan-fiction?
I’m sorry to say I am posting another chapter of His Blood today. I know it isn’t very popular, but I don’t really have anything else to post right now. Hopefully my life is going to allow me to start working on Shame’s Desire again soon.
Last week I mentioned that I have a spreadsheet of a lot of different info on each character in the Sense of Submission series. Stacy Saeman asked if I could share that spreadsheet with my readers. Unfortunately I can’t share the entire thing, because it would spoil future details, but this is a slice of it, including where character’s fall in my Dom/sub scale. There are also more characters on the private spreadsheet because there will be more characters coming in in the future and I don’t want to spoil that either. Hope you enjoy the info!
I’ve posted chapter 6 of His Blood for your enjoyment while I get back into the swing of Shame’s Desire. I hope to have a new chapter soon, but we will have to wait and see how much my muse is moved to work on anything at all.
65% of you voted for me to talk about the world of Smell of Submission this week! So that is exactly what I plan to do.
The biggest change I have made away from the cannon world is Harry’s darkness, and putting into effect that everyone can actually be sorted into one of two categories; dominate, or submissive. I don’t think that is really true of the cannon Harry Potter world, but it is an important fact for the telling of this story.
So everyone is either dominate or submissive, but not everyone is the same or as dominate or submissive as each other. Each character mentioned in my story has a rating of 1-6 in either dominate or submissive. (I have a very detailed spreadsheet that keeps track of this and other things). Those is are rated as a 1 in dominate or submissive tend to not have the drives to dominate or submit and can easily be confused for each other. Most of the active or main characters rate somewhere between a 3-5. Harry himself is the only character I’ve given a rating if 6, and that is mainly because he has something bringing out his dominate side all the more.
Ivan the Bold is completely made up for this story and will probably not make any appearances in any other of my stories. Though I have considered writing a short story about his death as a supplement to the Sense of Submission series. The Ministry has its own records about Ivan the bold, and I thought I would share a short entry from his file.
“Ivan Burke (Ivan the Bold)- Born in 1782 Ivan graduated from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry in 1799. It is suspected that he already had several members his deviant cult at that time. By the age of 30 Ivan was leading a separatist group who sought to cut themselves off from most of wizarding society. Those who work to follow in his footsteps are dangerous radicals that need to be watched.”
That really sums up the differences between the cannon world and the world of Sense of Submission, but if you have any questions about the world please comment below. If I feel I can answer them without ruining future plot that I will!