Season’s Greetings to all my readers.  So it is my usually posting day and it is also Christmas!  So I thought I would give all of my loyal readers a little present!  I am posting a very short drabble for fun as well as Chapter 1 of Sound of Submission!  I hope you all enjoy but don’t expect follow up too quickly I still want to finish Shame’s Desire before I get too serious about posting other stories.

Anyway to all those who don’t celebrate Christmas, Happy Holidays, and I hope you also enjoy this year’s presents!

SO yeah I forgot to tell you guys last week that I actually posted a chapter of Shame’s Desire.  So if you are still interested we have chapter 22 done and up for your enjoyment!  This week I have posted a short drabble like story that is the first peak at my original world.  I hope you like that too! It is called A Lonely Grave and features some of the secondary characters that I am writing my novel about.  I plan to write more about these characters and others, so please let me know what you think!

As many of you may have noticed I took November off of posting anything new to my little story blog here.  Well I wish I could tell you that was because I’ve been writing a whole lot of new content and that I am swimming in chapters of your favorite stories.  But the truth is I’ve been struggling with writer’s block most of the month.  Today I posted a new and final chapter of His Blood.  And I hope to bring you something new in the Shame’s Desire category next week, but my muse is only now just starting to be on speaking terms with me after this month of struggle.  So please be kind, we don’t want to scare her.

So I know everyone wants to know what happens with a pair of vampires, so here is chapter 10 of His Blood!

I’m sorry guys… I am sitting here with a temperature of 101 and nothing interesting is coming to mind.  I may give you something later this week!

Today we are getting chapter 9 of His Blood, which means we have only two more chapters till the end of the story.  I finally have another chapter of Shame’s Desire in progress and it just needs editing, which means you will get it after His Blood is finished hopefully.

I’m having a hard time writing my blog post this week.  Normal life as always is getting in the way, though this time I think it is myself getting in my own way.  Like many creative types I struggle with issues that seem to have no cause.  My anxiety is my hurtle of the day.

Anxiety for me in a weird topic.  It tends to have little or no cause, and I’m not sure which is worse.  When it has no cause, who I just have this overwhelming since of worry than I can sometimes tell myself there is nothing to worry about, I can talk myself into calming down and just dive into something to distract me.  Other times though it lasts for days like this since of doom hanging over me, waiting for something to go wrong so my brain can say, see I told you it was bad.

When the cause of the anxiety is something silly or small it isn’t much better.  Sometimes I can solve the problem, which makes the worry go away.  But much of the time it is drawn from something I have no control over.  In those times it connects to a since of helplessness that makes me want to just hide and never come out.

Today’s anxiety is both with and without cause.  It is mainly due to a party I am helping my sister with next week.  It seems the more I learn about this party the more I get drown in this overwhelming since of dread.  Instead of looking forward to spending time with friends and family, I am slowly panicking about the huge amount of people who will be there and not being able to retreat for hours and hours and hours.

So this has taken up my whole brain making it hard to think about telling good stories or talking about fun things.  My hope is it will go away soon…

So here comes another chapter of His Blood!  We are on chapter 8 out of 11 so you only have to deal with a few more weeks before you know how it all turns out!  Ive decided I am going to finish out this story before I post anything else.  I hope to have a couple more chapters of Shame’s Desire done before we finish this story so we can go right back into that.

So November is coming once again, and as many of you may already know it is National Write a Novel Month, or NaNoWriMo for short.  I do plan to participate again this year, and I hope to be able to get some of the original ideas I have down on paper.

For me writing original work is a lot more scary than any fan-fiction because this would be 100% me.  I can’t hide behind other people’s characters I have to make my own.  But I need to push myself out of my comfort zone and take on new projects.  I mean there was a time when I refused to post even fan-fiction because it was outside of my comfort zone, and look how far I have come from there?

This year I plan to write Awake: A Sleeping Beauty Story.  It is a concept I have been playing around with for a while and I decided NaNoWriMo is the exact excuse I need to actually work on it.  Because I will be working on original work I hope to have a bit of a stock pile of fan-fiction for you guys to ready while I am working on this.

Just because I am curious, how many of you would be interested in reading more original work by me, or do you feel I should stick to your beloved fan-fiction?

I’m sorry to say I am posting another chapter of His Blood today.  I know it isn’t very popular, but I don’t really have anything else to post right now.  Hopefully my life is going to allow me to start working on Shame’s Desire again soon.

Last week I mentioned that I have a spreadsheet of a lot of different info on each character in the Sense of Submission series.  Stacy Saeman asked if I could share that spreadsheet with my readers.  Unfortunately I can’t share the entire thing, because it would spoil future details, but this is a slice of it, including where character’s fall in my Dom/sub scale.  There are also more characters on the private spreadsheet because there will be more characters coming in in the future and I don’t want to spoil that either.  Hope you enjoy the info!

I’ve posted chapter 6 of His Blood for your enjoyment while I get back into the swing of Shame’s Desire.  I hope to have a new chapter soon, but we will have to wait and see how much my muse is moved to work on anything at all.

65% of you voted for me to talk about the world of Smell of Submission this week!  So that is exactly what I plan to do.

The biggest change I have made away from the cannon world is Harry’s darkness, and putting into effect that everyone can actually be sorted into one of two categories; dominate, or submissive.  I don’t think that is really true of the cannon Harry Potter world, but it is an important fact for the telling of this story.

So everyone is either dominate or submissive, but not everyone is the same or as dominate or submissive as each other.  Each character mentioned in my story has a rating of 1-6 in either dominate or submissive.  (I have a very detailed spreadsheet that keeps track of this and other things).  Those is are rated as a 1 in dominate or submissive tend to not have the drives to dominate or submit and can easily be confused for each other.  Most of the active or main characters rate somewhere between a 3-5.  Harry himself is the only character I’ve given a rating if 6, and that is mainly because he has something bringing out his dominate side all the more.

Ivan the Bold is completely made up for this story and will probably not make any appearances in any other of my stories.  Though I have considered writing a short story about his death as a supplement to the Sense of Submission series.  The Ministry has its own records about Ivan the bold, and I thought I would share a short entry from his file.

“Ivan Burke (Ivan the Bold)- Born in 1782 Ivan graduated from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry in 1799.  It is suspected that he already had several members his deviant cult at that time.  By the age of 30 Ivan was leading a separatist group who sought to cut themselves off from most of wizarding society.  Those who work to follow in his footsteps are dangerous radicals that need to be watched.”

That really sums up the differences between the cannon world and the world of Sense of Submission, but if you have any questions about the world please comment below.  If I feel I can answer them without ruining future plot that I will!

Sorry about the late posting guys, my head has been completely tied up in an event I was running this weekend and I had no net access to post this sooner.  I have a new chapter of His Blood for you, and I hope you can enjoy that.

Because I just don’t have the brainpower to write real thoughts down right now, I am going to leave you with a poll on what you would like to see next week.

Today I am posting the last of what I have written for Shame’s Desire.  Chapter 21 reveals some more about the Dark Emperor and has a lot of Bellatrix drama.  Because of work stuff and an event I will be running next weekend, you all will be getting more His Blood next week.  But I hope to have new Shame’s Desire the following week.

Now I am planning to do give you my opinions and thoughts of the many female characters I work with from the Harry Potter universe.  I may make future additions to the characters I talk about, but these are the closets to my heart.

Hermione Granger

It took me a while to decide on who to start with, but in the end I decided on Hermione for many reasons.  Her being a member of the “golden-trio” being a big part of it.  Hermione is a strong woman who knows her own mind from the very start of the series.  She is an important resource for Harry as the stories go on and is a hero in her own right.  It is easy for many readers to see her value as it is made very clear in the books that without her Harry would be lost.

I feel I have to mention her race, only because it was a hot topic when it came out a black woman would be playing her in the new play.  Unfortunately for my imagination I actually watched the first movie before I started to read the books, so I tend to think of her as Emma Watson.  But ever since the casting I have had little problem imagining her the other way was well.  I have no real opinion on it and I welcome my readers to imagion Hermione any way they wish.

When I first started writing fan fiction I had a great aversion to using her in my stories.  I just wasn’t that interested in her.  Like Harry her story was out there already and I didn’t think there was a lot of need to explore the character further.  When I started work on Smell of Submission I didn’t think it would be more than one story, but I’ve enjoyed exploring Hermione’s submissive side in it and other works I’ve done with Voldemort.

Luna Lovegood

I’ve always loved Luna from the books.  I saw her as this quirky girl that just had her own way of looking at the world.  I know many women reading the Harry Potter books say they see themselves in Hermione, but she was never relatable for me.  Luna on the other hand I could relate to, which is probably why I like her so much.  She si a soft spoken girl when sees the world in a way that no one around her really understands or believes.

In my stories I try to keep true to the core of who she is, while at the same time letting her grow with the things she must face in that tale.  I think this growth is most notable in the Face Trilogy where she starts off a bit off from herself and has to forge a somewhat new identity in order to survive.

Ginny Weasley

Ginny is a strong and fiery witch that doesn’t take a lot of guff because she has six older brothers that she has to keep up with.  She grows to be a strong woman after having to face her own darkness at age eleven.  She is a safe harbor for Harry because she knows the face of Voldemort in a way no one else in the world can, which means she is one of the few women he doesn’t have to explain anything to.

In my work I liked to use the darkness that she has already been through to make her a more corruptible character.  I enjoy pairing her with either Draco or Voldemort because of who her family is and what she when through her in youth.  I like the drama that is created when she is paired with the dark wizards, though obviously I like dark wizards.